grateful.

remember to thank God for every breath you take.
every seconds, minutes, hours, days of your life.
your life is precious, don't waste it away with something insignificant.

khamis.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

hari khamis yang penuh dengan aktiviti.

mula-mula pergi rehlah dekat shah alam with the sisters. aku lewat sejam, dari KL ke shah alam, took me an hour to reach. one hour! adoi. met mar, nad, nurul, azlin, farah, mun, farahin, ika and han. had a good time with them. :) iA we'll meet again next week. aku seriously excited. hehehehehe. tapi down sikit, sebab eli tak jadi pergi. haih. takpe. it's like what i've told her : next camp kau kena pergi, aku tak kira! hahaha.

lepas rehlah and said goodbyes, gerak ke taman sea, pick up dana and sasa. pergi mid valley untuk memburu kasut itu. lepas sejam baru sampai mid valley sebab berpusing-pusing cari parking. adoi. banyak gila kereta...

mencari-cari, jumpa kedainya. nampak kasut tu on display. terus laju je jalan masuk.

"boleh mintak kasut ni size 8?"
"8? lelaki ke perempuan?"
"err, perempuan?"
"hm? 8? kasut ni size berapa?" *tunjuk kasut yang aku pakai waktu tu. converse dark blue, 8*
"8.."
"hah? 8? tengok tapak"
*tunjuk tapak*
"ok"
*lelaki sales assistant tu pun mencari*
"takde la."
"hmm, boleh ambik yang display ni?"
"display tu size 7.."
"tak, dia size 8"
"oh? boleh."

try lah the kasut. mula2 ingatkan dia besar. tapi actually sama je. it looks big cos the lace is tied differently. mana la tau ada 8 lelaki 8 perempuan. sexist la pulak converse ni. then terus nak beli. tak kisah dah. lepas bayar and all, muka pun jadi macam ni >> :))

maka, aku pun gembira. pergi bangsar kejap, dana ambik cake untuk mahesh then singgah tempat man kit, lepas tu pergi makan kat ara damansara. later on, teri and haris joined us. before they came, dana said "they're coming. act natural." i gasped. lol. saje je la.

pergi watson, beli ubat. sakit perut, HCl dah berkeledak dalam perut sebab lewat makan lunch. bayangkanlah, lunch at 4.30pm. niiice. -.- pergi bank, hantar dana balik, hantar sasa balik, stop kat al-hidayah, balik puchong.

PENAT. penat drive satu hari. walaupun ada masanya dana drive. adoi. nasib kereta auto. manual nanti ntah camana. dah dengan traffic jammed semua. adoi.

terlalu penat hinggakan aku tidur lebih daripada 10 jam. tak terbangun sahur dan subuh. :/ ni melampau sangat! geram dengan diri sendiri. :S

Pagi Yang Masih Gelap.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

I can't get the lines from the novel out of my head. Why do this novel gets to me so much? Not exact lines lah but the meaning and all.

"Who am I to you?"
"Who says there's nothing more complicated than E=mc²? It's called emotions."

Amie asked me to read all hlovate's novel. Best ke Amie? Gayanya macam best, tapi saya malas ohh bab-bab membaca ni. Serious...

I blame this novel for the tinnie tiny lovey dovey I'm feeling now. MUSHY. ew. =.=" Haha. Pernah I posted about what I wanted of love. *mencari entry lama* here it is! aku ada baca entri-entri Fynn Jamal dan buat statement berani macam tu. Little did I know she read that post. *maluuuu* I don't know why but when you're married, and you bercinta macam unmarried couple zaman sekarang = SWEET. :) Macam Fynn, macam Addin dalam novel. Aaaa. Comel gila ! Saya mahu macam tu? Kidding! Ha ha ha ha ha. Stop berangan lah. HEHEHE.

Semalam tengok Inception with gang wednesday. We broke the rules. We went out on Monday! Hahaha. Went to Pyramid, upon my request, semata-mata nak check out Converse Pyramid. Hehe. They had lunch kat Shihlin, we catch up on things. Inception, gempak la. I really like the movie. I'm starting to like C.Nolan's movies. :D The actors ramai famous juga. Ada J. Gordon-Levitt, tu penting. And C. Murphy. My favourite villain. Tapi dalam movie ni dia adalah mangsa. Haha. And Ellen Page! My Junebug :D And ada cameo by my favourite British actress, Talulah Riley. Ohsem line up. Not gonna write spoilers for the movie. Don't worry. :)

C. Murphy's eyes. Blue eyes. Why and why do I like blue eyed guys? Macam S. Knight. Gojes ais. :D Ok, did some digging on C. Murphy, aparrently he does not like the fame and all. He never reveal his private life with the press and never have interviews unless it's about his movie. Family man lah ni. Haha. He's part Irish. Lagi aaa suka. IRISH!

Athirah said J. Gordon-Levitt looked more manly in this movie. Yeap, he looked good. Smart.

After movies, went to Carl's Junior upon my request juga. HEHE, thank you kawans. ;) Chilli cheese fries + Chilli jumbo dog + Iced lemon tea = kenyang gila. Alhamdulillah~

Oh yea, TGV Pyramid macam apa je. Student price also RM9. Kepala paip betul. Mahal gila. Sunday GSC pun RM9. Apahal mahal sangat ni aku pun tak paham.

Saya dah takde duit. Sedih. Nak pegi MidValley! Nak check out Converse sana pulak. Siapa nak teman ni? Semua ada class, gang wednesday je lah free. Mari mari? :P Thursday ni iA ada rehlah. Macam excited tapi segan sikit. Hehehe.

Ada orang tu "marah" sebab schedule aku agak compact. Especially in August. Hey, apa kes? Ada plan masa cuti pun bising. :p

quickie.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

first of all, i need to announce this.

it's been quite sometime this thing started but no one really knew, except few ones were with me in Kursk. i do no wish people for their birthday. i do not celebrate birthday. i don't wanna sing the birthday song. i have my own reasons for this. too long to explain here, takut korang takkan faham persepsi aku. insyaAllah satu hari nanti aku explain. bukan sekarang. jadi, tolong jangan terasa kalau aku tak wish. sorry.

if nak tau reason sebenar, tanya je aku bila jumpa. settle. k?


tadi tengok despicable me & toy story 3. had a great time with my girls. despicable me made me teared, bcos laughed too much and toy story 3 ending sedih, teared lagi. (nasib baik aku tak obses dgn toys time dulu2 kalau tak balik rumah nangis2 selongkar toys lama2) hahaha.


btw, cerita / shows kat tv sekarang mcm crap. or it has always been like this but mentality aku berubah?

apa nak jadi dengan aku?

apa nak jadi dengan dunia?

ya rabbi, berikanku kekuatan untuk menepis segala keburukan. aku hanyalah hamba yang lemah.

chenta.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

semalam aku beli novel aA+bB, aku tak tergerak hati nak cari pun semalam tapi bila nampak kedai buku popular, terus zupppppppp, cari, nampak, ambik. hehe. cari tafsir Al- Quran tapi tafsir dia lain, buat pening bila baca. nanti cari kat mph je lah.

balik je semalam kemas sikit dengan mama. lepas tu ingat nak tidur, tapi bila dah online.. haih. lalai betul. tiba-tiba tengok jam dah pukul 3am, tu sedar sebab aisha cakap dia nak tidur dah. adoi, aku nak buat apa? takkan nak tidur, alamat lepas lah subuh nanti. suddenly i remembered about the novel. okay, let's read!

baca dan baca, i couldn't put the book down, sampai lah pukul 6.30am. huish. aku bukan jenis yang membaca, and i don't really read malay novel. tapi bila kat kursk dulu si eli, aisha, ima recommend kan baca tunas, a novel by hlovate ni, i'm hooked. and aA+bB is the continuation lah kira, eventhough aA+bB was published first. i seriously don't like to read. tapi these 2 novels, i really like. not to say i love cintan cintun novel. last month i read pilot cafe novel i borrowed from nadia pun baca tak baca je. skip banyak sebab bosan. and it's a love story lah jugak. plus, i finish the book within a day je sebab banyak skip. wahaha.

aA+bB really is interesting. nak kata jiwang, tak jugak. main characters are trashers, tak main ayat cinta-cinta ni. girl named addin shah and boy named benz alif. addin sempoi, benz cool. tapi towards the end of the book diorang agak mushy lah but not so, so i can still tolerate.

cerita macam ni lah buat aku wonder maybe, there is someone out there for ourself. like really meant for us? i've heard that, girls are made from one of the guys rib cage. so each girl is meant for specific guy. (this is the saying because Hawa was made from Adam's ribcage) erk, entahlah.

this novel macam bittersweet love story. benz sweet lah. aku jatuh hati. hahah. dana cakap ni macam edward cullen aku lah konon. i said, benz is more realistic cos he's not 107 years old vampire. :P

itulah dia my point of view bila baca this novel. tapi bila snap back to reality, couples sekarang macam apa je. okay, not all of them, most of them anyway. haha. aku bukannya jealous dan aku obviously "tak rasa apa yang diorang rasa" which is "rasa berchenta" ni. aku rasa tak payah nak tunjuk kau berchenta tahap gaban lepas tu break. sebab aku tak rasa diorang rasa apa yang patut diorang rasa. mostly infatuation, please don't call it love. you have ruined the reputation of love by saying that you're in love but clearly you are not. (at least to me you are not, you yourself, apa you tau. hahaha)

strong like and love tak sama. sayang = love or cinta = love? sayang and cinta lain kay.

apa2 lah. aku rant pasal chenta ni takkan habis punya. aku dah pernah post pasal cinta ni kat blog lama pun. haha.

chenta je lah pada yang satu, pada yang Esa, padaNya kerana hanya Dia takkan kecewakan kita.

empty.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

tried to take a picture of love. i wanna fill this new frame, but it's empty.

aku rasa the cons of balik rumah is these feelings. perangai makin teruk. im back to my old self. mood swing tak pasal. is it really bcos of the enviroment kat rumah or i am what i am? aku tak suka dengan perangai sendiri, tapi bila cuba ubah, dia jadi macam tu juga. willing tak kuat. lemah! manusia yang hina!

aku buat benda2 yang aku tak sepatutnya buat, seperti buang masa. serious aku buang masa. aku balik 8 july kan? skrg dah hampir 2 minggu and satu apa pun aku tak achieve. buang masa, buang duit je kerja. menyusahkan parents. menyusahkan kawan2. seriously annoyed with my own self!

semalam pergi KL with parents, nak settlekan visa tokyo. lepas tu aku ckp aku nak keluar, yeah, aku actually nak makan naan, haha. aku ajak dana, dia ajak the rest of the gang. aku pun pergi lah KJ jumpa dorang semua. haris picked me up, cos i didnt have the car with me. pegi digital mall, got myself something. pergi baker's cottage. got my fav tuna filled bun. :) :) << mood happy.

lepas tu they decided to go makan kat picadilly. aku ikut je. aku tak jadi makan naan. diorang je la makan, aku lepak je. << mood dah turun.

lepas tu dana and teri had to go back, so haris send them home. aku terus diam, time tu dah almost 9pm. << mood start hilang.

aku tak rasa sbb picadilly tu aku hilang mood, aku sebenarnya marah dgn diri sendiri, tak tau kenapa rasa nak jerit je time tu, tapi cool, cool. jgn buat gila, buat scene dpn org. aku hampir nangis sebenarnya tapi tahan je lah, aku tak nak buat scene, like i said. after hantar dana, sasa cakap "sya is quiet already." << mood betul2 hilang.

aku cakap aku mengantuk, which was true pun. haris pun pelik kenapa aku ngan teri diam. teri sakit perut actually, haha. aku? ntah. lepas send off teri, we're on the way to puchong, my place. aku rasa sedikit bersalah sbb haris kena hantar aku, dah la jauh weh. tapi aku takde transport lain! lagipun dorang kata okay bila aku tanya boleh ke hantar aku balik. hm. << mood tenang.

bila sampai rumah, sasa and haris were so excited. aku pun melayankan je lah. showed them around. haris said this is his dream house. hahaha. sasa cakap ni cantik, tu cantik. semua la dorang suka. << mood dah okay.

at the end of the night, aku okay,

MOOD SWING GILA. aku rasa hormones aku pun menggila. jerawat banyak gila kat muka, macam aku stress padahal tak pun. ke memang aku stress duduk rumah? hahahaha.

part of me nak balik kursk, sebab kat situ aku WARAS.

weird, tempat yang tak waras buat aku waras. tempat yang waras buat aku GILA!

tak suka.

erghghghghg.

baca post entry blog pun tau time bila aku waras, time bila aku gila. dan time tu aku kat mana.

gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

;S

a trip down to memory lane

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

first of all meet John Denver, my current bf. :p

my fortune cookie said this. :o

form 5~ one of the best years. :'))
cantik kan tag. tgk laa siapa designer dia. HAHAHA *angkat bakul sendiri*

my primary school time where my obsession about barbie stuff. mannn.. i was THAT girl?

keychain. i dont rmmbr why but i was called chicken. i think we had our all animal names back then. f2 time



during primary. athirah gave me this. hahahahaha. i dont even remember! but this is the proof. i bet athirah pun tak ingat kan ;D

and the worst thing, my diary. i tak sempat tak pic of the front cover. but the content, omg! GELI GUA. EW EW EW EW EW EW. all those writings about hate and love. mostly hate lah kan, about this person and that person. the way i wrote. GELI. EW!!!

:D

but something caught my eye, i wrote there :

" i wanna be a doctor!"

aku terdiam. i wrote then when i was 12. i was determined back then, but why doubting it now? i should regain my strength and faith. i wanna be a doctor. :)

someone once said if you laugh at your old-self, that means you are growing up. yeay im growing up. :)

speaking.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

aku tahu satu hari nanti aku akan tulis pasal ni.

kalau aku cakap english, aku ni nampak arrogant ke? poyo? sebab tak reti2 nak berbahasa melayu?

sometimes i do feel comfortable speaking in english tapi most of the time aku hantam cakap melayu jugak.

hari tu time jalan2 with aisha, aku asyik ckp english. aku perasan, tapi bila try tukar cakap melayu, automatic akan tukar to english balik. macamlah aku duduk russia aku cakap english. kat russia aku cakap melayu selalu. sampaikan roommate aku yang tak paham melayu boleh cakap melayu dah sikit2.

serious time balik ni aku asyik ckp english. then lately, abang cakap aku punya english ada slang. MANA ADA. ke ada? hahahaha, aku rasa mcm takde. pelik ah.

aku tak cakap yang english aku power. tolong sikit. grammar english aku tunggang terbalik, tatabahasa melayu ntah ke mana. padesh ruski? ooohhh way beyond horrible.

i speak broken. malay. english. russian. i can't speak proper.

"can't you speak prop-er?" quote from a british movie. lol. tetiba xD

i can't! mostly sekarang i speak rojaks. english malay russian. tapi now in malaysia siapa je paham ruski, jadi kita buang ruski tu jauh2. :P

tapi best, time jln2 with aisha, we spoke russian so no one can understand. nyahaha. tapi aku pun pening laa kalau aku cakap russian aisha pun tak paham. ;[ haha

so tak kisah lah aku cakap bahasa apa. janji paham. nanti cek dok habaq kat hang macam orang kedah, hang dak paham, cek pun susah. keche' kelate kang mu dok pahe gok. nasib baik mek sik tauk kelakar sangat, mun sik kitak pun pening.

arai na? mai ru, mai kau chai. 55555555! (thai)

pahe dok? 555!

:)

oke lah explain sikit;

arai na? = apa dia?
mai ru = tak tau
mai kau chai = tak paham
5 = ha
5555 = hahahah


whatever it is;
SAY it don't SPRAY it.

weekends.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

abang : adik, kau jangan kahwin.
me : hahahha kenapa?
abang : penat !

dont get it wrong, bukan penat apa. penat nak buat preparation. the walimatul urus. the hantaran, the bunga telur, etc.

PENAT ! and i'm not the one who's getting married. bayangkan laaa. like i said, we've been through this last year, during kakak's wedding. but i think last year lagi penat. tido like 3am to siapkan things. etc etc. eventhough i have to admit, i'm the lazy member. i only do maybe 30% of the work and i already complaining penat. kudos to mama. idk how she does it. shes a superwoman~ ayah can la also be superman. hehehe.

few months ago, i have this 'dream', that time wedding abang i wanna play the Barakallahulakuma song by Maher Zain. cos it's the doa for newlyweds. tapi tinggal mimpi je la. i don't have the song to pass the dj. :( ok la, here, i tujukan the song to them. haha.

and ramai suka buat joke pasal next year i pulak getting married, cos last year was kakak's and this year is abang's. =.=" sudah2 lah. i'm giving my parents at least 7 years of rest before my wedding begins. ;) haahaa.

it's nice to have abang around. and kakak. i like it when we're all here together. despite every bittersweet we've been through. *sentimental sekejap* lepas ni aku confirm solo. kakak has her own family now and abang gonna start his. wow, if i already feel like this, my parents lagi lah. with myself gonna be home for only 1-2 months in a year. i'm gonna missed out every exciting thing. :(

my niece is interesting. she's nocturnal. sleeps during the day, despite of all kinds of noises. wake up during the night, trouble her parents. huahuahua. little azizah. miow. :D

kakak doesn't look like a mom. and we still got mistaken as each other. old news. -.- most of ppl think i'm the elder. cos i'm taller. ha ha. heyy i'm taller than kak wani. kesianlah, she's been wearing 4 inch heels during the wedding reception. well you know what they say : beauty is pain. speaking of shoes, i wore my black sneakers to both events on saturday and sunday. on saturday still ok i think cos i was wearing black pants. on sunday i wore the sneakers with the turqoise baju kurung. what to do lah, i don't have any other shoes. i can't wear anyone elses' shoes cos my feet is 'delicate'. i thought i could wear teri's but, oooh dear. i couldn't. so the heck with it, not like people gonna notice. BUT, a'd noticed. that's bcos she always look at the shoes i think? she was like "next time, jangan pakai kasut ni!" hahahahhaah. i already warned my parents i'm gonna wear it. abang and ayah were like, just wear it. im like yeah !! the dudes in the family supportive gila. ahhahaha. on sunday abang mentioned about my shoes. kak wani was like "semalam pun dia pakai kan?" haha. black sneakers ftw! (Y)

it's good to be home. i thanked the Almighty for that. but one thing i dont like being home, my attitude changes. to my old self. the negative me. i don't know why but the environment makes me become so. i must learn how to control these behaviours. ;S

b-b-break

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

i feel like blogging. whoa oh. im THAT bored. :nods: but hey, that's holiday. if only i were in kj. i wouldn't even be in the house so often, hahaha. staying here is nice but it's so hard to go out without transport. ;[ and like, ok, i need a car to go anywhere cos i dont know how to take public transport in here. ok more like i dont want to. i hate ktm. thats the closest thing right now. i hate ktm, did i mention tht? mhm.

o well.

abang's back. i cant believe he still steals my blanket when i was asleep. i dono why but he always do that. i woke up in early morning (like really early) realising my blanket's gone. oh look, it's on the floor with a dude lying on it. oh, brother. -.- i had to get something else to cover myself. and i was like ahhh malasnyaa, i'm alrdy lying down. ok, think, you wanna be lazy and get cold for the rest of the sleep or be slightly rajin and go get the towel? (i seriously said that to myself) so i got up and grab the towel and cover myself, sambung balik tido. yeay me. lol.

when everyone else was awake, talking and talking, i just feel like sleeping. i think my mom or was it my aunt, fold the blanket my bro used and cover me up. lols.

oh yeah im pretty sure its my aunt. cos she would say something like "oo selimut, selimut. sexy, sexy." -.- i was wearing shorts je kot. not like i'm well... ahhaha, ok. :$

btw, abang bought this armani perfume, limited edition. it looked nice. didn't smell it. the reason he bought it? the limited edition perfume comes with a limited edition playing cards. i knew it. hahaha.

mama wanted said, "we shud do bbq end of this month.." and im sure, by we, she meant me. -.- not that i dont wanna do, i just think there's not much time. with the wedding this weekend, and the post-wedding tire. hoho. we've been through this last yr ppl. it's not that easy.. i wonder why women, like mama, aunts and grandma, gets soooooooooooooo excited to plan the wedding. so many things to do. so tiring. so. so. so. tiring! (even if its not me who do most of the stuff, can u imagine?) and the dudes just laid back. ok not really goyang kaki but pretty laid back lah.

oh women. sometimes i dont get you. my idea of shopping, go to the shop, get the things, go back home. yeap. not going around every store and well, look at everything and then decide which to buy. i don't really like shopping much. i mean, i like when i get to buy something i like. but not the idea of going to every stores and check out everything. thats why i rarely shop. hoho. i dono. i like to think that sometimes i do think like a dude. hahahahahaha.

oh, watching the friday prayer thing on tv1. i dono why the camera ppl are so close to the ppl whos praying and with the camera flash and all. distracting la. plus, this particular saying like haunts me (in a good way) everytime i thought of friday prayer. something like this :

"takkan ada jemaah subuh yang lebih ramai dari jemaah jumaat".

SO TRUE. :S

what is the diff anyway? subuh prayer is no less wajib as jumaat prayer. but of cos, to pray as jemaah is optional but wouldn't it be great if we could build jemaah subuh as many as jemaah jumaat?

hm.

hunting.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

yes, i'm back for the summer break. back in malaysia that is. been meaning to blog but didn't have the mood. so here's the mood.

journey from kursk to malaysia is like almost 24 hours. tiring, my back hurts like an old lady. but alhamdulillah, i've made it to malaysia. we had some drama going on during the journey but hey, what's life without drama? haha.

i don't know if my friends know i have moved from KJ. i think some of them knows anyway. yeap, right now it's either i'm in Puchong, or in Sentul. so, yeah. you guys still can reach my at my old number. so just call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me. :D

yesterday went jalan2 for a bit. and i saw MY PRECIOUS. i've told myself and some others that if i saw a green converse, i would so totally buy it! and i did. and i was like having a moment there. *everything was in the dark and a spotlight lighting to the green converse* and it's not just green, it's apple green. i really hope no one touches my precious. i mean, to everyone i know, PLS DONT BUY IT. dont touch my precious. :) one of these days i'm gonna go get it. pls wait my love, we'll be together soon. <33

oh yeah, there was also turquoise and purple. the purple is not that nice. but the turquoise is nice too. i'm thinking to get them both. haha. *tamak haloba*

i think i need to go and do some medical check up. the rashes are gone worse and now i feel like dizzy. maybe that's because i've been eating a lot of malaysian food and stuff. everything. i want everything. ahhaha. i wanna go hunt for foood. but no one is free enough to teman me go anywhere. everyone i'm close with have either school, college, uni, work maybe. ahhh :( sedihs.

i feel like hunting tmrw. food and my precious. maybe do a little visiting. i shall propose this idea to mama. nyiahaha.

oh and spain was the world cup champion. big deal. i like spain but seriously i couldn't care less. lalala. and for the people to believe a "prediction" by a squid? he is a squidddddd. or an octopus? i'm not sure. yang penting dia Cephalopoda, Mollusc. khurafat gile percaya benda alah ni. bongeks.

lol, teringat my roomie ask me when we were in kursk;
"sya, what's the meaning of bongok?"
"you just look at niza, then you will understand.."
hhahahah. joke joke. cos niza lah always say bongok. bongok. :p

oh wells. i need to list the things i need to buy and want to buy. nyiahhaa. must go huuntingggg.

ignorance.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

I feel like this song suits THE situation. I'm talking about the person who couldn't let go of the past, still living the memories, fantasizing, not snapping back to reality. You're annoying and I still think you're an idiot. Tq.

Ignorance is bliss indeed.

dunia, oh dunia.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

hari ni aku settlekan exam bio. pass ke tidak, esok baru dapat result. lepas exam kami berempat (with ira, sasa & niza) mengejarkan signature utk approval balik nanti. sambil2 tu makan lunch kat italianski. pergh, sodap bro! sushi roll dia menghampakan. tapi pasta sotong dia. YUM ! :D sana agak pricey that's why we saved the last day of exam to go there. and then balik to uni.

kat uni, we were supposed to get few signatures lah as approval balik kan. one of them is our dean of faculty. hari tu mintak kat dia, dia kata lepas buat exam semua baru dia nak sign. so hari ni paper last lah kan, utk our faculty, punyalah gempak, sebab time kitorang mencari dia untuk dptkan sign, dia takde. yang ada secretary dia.

*translated convo from russian*
us : can we get the dean's signature?
secretary : dean is on holiday.
us : oh, when will he be back?
secretary : september.

GEMPAK RITE? -.-

patut vice dean lah kan sign bagi pihak. pegi kat vice dean dia kata secretary pulak yang sign. secretary dia ni pulak cakap tak tau tak tau, tanya muhammad. (muhammad mcm PR for foreigners la)

at last we asked our russian teacher to settlekan. jadi. ok lah. esok pegi collect paper tu.

actually bila collect signature ni kan, terigt time dulu kat sekolah, during my prefect probation. kena ambik signature semua. tapi tu bongek, sbb senior ask the ridiculous things for us to do! tanya la soalan yang bernas ke. ni suruh kejar sini sana, membuli ! saya dengan rileknya tak participate, i don't like the concept of it. kalau kau tanya aku soalan like "berapa umur pn lee" aku ok lagi. kalau kau suruh aku nyanyi sekuat hati lagu pengawas, kirim salam bro. *rebelious* ;) anyhow i think i managed to get 1 signature. tu pun from seng guan, the assistant head prefect, gave me, for the sake of mercy. gaha, i didn't even ask for it. sebab probates lain semua macam competitive, nak completekan semua list, or siapa complete terbanyak. i was actually touched that seng guan gave me his signature, cos with other people he gave a hard time to collect the signature.

another one was during form 6 orientation. collect signature form 6 teachers and ajk of form 6 council. i only take signatures from those yang don't ask us to do ridiculous thing. well actually from the start me, dana and chai theng tak nak buat. they said those who get the least signatures will be punish. so we did it anyway. BUT, we were still among those who got the least signatures. HAHA. then we had to choose a partner, to DANCE with infront of everyone to britney's CIRCUS. HOMAIGAD. i did it. and luckily there was sai. i didn't know who else to pick, dah la tak kenal semua org, hahaha. it was. omg. cukup2 la cerita psl tu. xD

enough with going down memory lane. back to reality.

balik hostel, found out tandas tersumbat, AGAIN. shiet, people don't you read? it clearly states : DO NOT THROW RUBBISH (TISSUES,CIGARETTES,PAD) INTO THE TOILET BOWL. and it was in russian & english. how hard is it for you to understand? pacimu vi ne panimaite? ya ujhe napisala pa ruski! shto eta takoi? glupiye ruskie ludi !

report kat mama vera. then try to tido, tenangkan hati yang cepat sangat marah & geram tak tentu pasal. haih.

bangun, lepak jap with wingmates. teman dorang makan. still kenyang form italianski, tapi kesian fon already cook for us. huhu. watched alice in wonderland halfway then tiba2 teringat ada remember me. so layan remember me. mula2 ingat nak solat dulu tapi mcm ala tgk la movie dulu, maghrib lambat masuk anyways.

tgk movie then tertido. cerita dia oke la, rob looks better there, when he doesn't try so hard to be a vampire. then the girl, her eyes, i love. aha. sedar time ira dtg bilik. talked to her, hu ha hu ha kejap. :)

time tu dah maghrib pun. tgk la tu. LALAI. serious bengong aku time tu. eventho part of me says "go go go go solat !" the dominant part says "kejap la kejap la" ... :(

basuh baju, socks. then time nak mandi, sedang shampoo dgn best, air sejuk takde. AIR SEJUK TAKDE. whtha. tgh shampoo !!! satu building takde air sejuk, penat check dgn member2. pergh ! tu la. balasan. lengahkan lagi solat. baru kau tau. padan mukeeeeeee.

at the end bilas dgn air minum roommateku. thanks fon. huhu. then terus rasa macam dunia ni macam tahi, melalaikan tak sudah sampai tahap lupa kat Tuhan.

betapa rasa bersalahnya aku. takut kalau2... :(

moral of story, jangan lengahkan benda baik. lapang sebelum sempit, kawan2. we don't know what's infront of us. what will we do tmrw. we can only plan but God is the one who sets everything.

this applies to another thing, the one moral i picked up from movie "remember me". *SPOILER ALERT* ellie, the girl, always eat dessert first. when asked why, she said that what if something happen right that moment and she couldn't have the thing that she most desired for? and the ending, where, tyler, the dude, was in the world trade centre building, and it was september 11, 2001. he didn't knew what was coming.

dont get me wrong, i'm not asking you to ENJOY sampai mati sbb nanti bila mati tak dapat enjoy. i'm saying that, we don't know when we're gonna die. sure, we take care our heart, we exercise regularly, eat balanced diet but that doesn't gurantee anybody's life. seriously. we can die on the spot if God wants us to. so stop, don't procrastinate good or even great things. we wouldn't know when our time is up, people. don't waste your time to do insignificant things. proceed to greater things.

& as usual, this is a reminder for myself and others out there. muhasabah diri masing2. :]