when we're in the midst of disobeying His orders, and doing what He told us not to when we are clear of the do's and don'ts, istighfar.
istighfar, dear heart.
gather up your strength and let it go.
and when you do let it go because of Allah, insyaAllah He'll make it ease for you.
for once, I didn't think of sudden changes will happened to me. I know one day it will happened, but I didn't think it would be this soon. too soon. too abrupt, I felt like I didn't have the chance to say goodbye.
I thought to myself, yes, this is the better path. no more rooms for making sins, insyaAllah. or at least, lessen the sins I've made.
but deep inside I couldn't help but to say, " why on earth did I let this go this? I felt a little of regret. "
and astaghfirullah, I shouldn't feel regret.
never regret leaving the things He hates and never ever regret of doing something good for your soul.
the path is never easy for those who were promised Heaven.
if getting into Jannah is as easy as A B C, we will all crammed into Jannah like those boneless sardine in a can. eh?
Jannah is not easy to achieved but it's not impossible. we have all the 'cheat codes' in the Quran.
to simplify : do as what He pleases, leave all the things He hates.
it's all there, masyaAllah. it's up to us to move our butt to work on it or just sit out on this one, and see other people striving for Jannah. and one day in Akhirah, we'll be looking at them with bright and happy faces, as they get to enter Jannah. and us? wallahu'alam.
whenever we wanna do something, ask ourselves, is this permissible in Islam?
Islam never restricts any thing way too much. it is us who exaggerate on a certain aspect of Islam. Islam love modesty. never too extreme and to 'chill' for anyone. never. most of the things that are permissible might fall into 'danger' zone when we do it excessively. and that, insyaAllah I will go on deeper on that matter in another post.
ya Allah, grant us strength and make us istiqamah with this wonderful deen.
when I tried to do something and every thing seems out of place, I felt this is His way of telling me off -- "Sya, have you forgotten about your Lord? Have you recited enough my love letters every day? Have you remembered me during your day and night? Have you..."
So remember Him and only in remembrance of Allah the heart finds peace. (13:28)