thunder.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

listening to emo playlist. sad songs. i dono why but thunder by boys like girls in the playlist as well. i love this song. i remembered singing to it every time when it rained back in malaysia, when it was few more months to my departure.

i've read an email and i feel sad.

instead of feeling excited, happy and loved, (i don't know why) it makes me feel like i don't wanna go back home. i don't wanna face them, i'm scared. and even though they said they're okay with anything, i still feel scared & i feel like avoiding them. avoiding them, it's like cutting off our friendship. i know cutting off our friendship isn't a solution and obviously not a decision i wanna make.

i think this is the pre-going-home-for-summer-break feelings, no?

i feel like avoiding everyone now.

cis, staring at the sun is playing.

oke, minna has called me twice to cook. yes yes ayam kaming. (i am coming)