Extroverted Introvert II

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.
I was given a task, to think of what are my strength, my weakness. Weakness? That's easy. I have tonnes! I wrote a lot on that. Strength? ..

I don't even know what's my strength. I resorted to ask my roommate to write what she thinks of my strength. She wrote down a few, and I had to reject some of her ideas -- because it doesn't feel like it's me.

She thinks I can manage my time well, when deep inside I loathe myself for not having my tasks organised in a day or even in a week. Everything was so out of place. She thinks I can mingle around very well; to which I respond : I hate meeting new people.

Then it occurred to me;

I am that extroverted introvert. I am introvert by nature : I like spending time on my own, my idea of holiday and having a good time is to lay around on my bed, reading stuff or watching videos I like, meeting new people scares me, I hate talking infront of a crowd. I hate changes (I hated the idea when my parents decided to move from where we stayed) I don't really bother of others' business at all and more.

but, since my path have cross with tarbiyyah I have decided to learn on how to be a little extrovert.

I meet new people, try to link a good relation with them. I go out and spend time with other people - possibly doing the things that I don't really like, but, yeah, for the sake of spending time, I'd go; I started to talk infront of a crowd; I join or sometimes held a mini reunion with some people (that's basically a dinner get together) I learn to lend a hand to others and learn to care about other people -- and many more.

Tarbiyyah has taught me to be something different than I actually am and that's not even hypocritical. You just become someone that is extra! Alhamdulillah for the tarbiyyah. Even if it takes me like 7 years to actually acquire this extra skills in life. Hehe.

Indeed, tarbiyyah is a process. A process that is going on, and on, in other for us to achieve something new and good. and insyaAllah to be istiqamah with it.

Has tarbiyyah knocked on your life yet?