Hadis 15

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. berkata: Rasulullah saw. bersabda, "Ada dua golongan yang akan menjadi penghuni Neraka yang belum lagi aku melihat mereka. Pertama, golongan (penguasa) yang mempunyai cemeti-cemeti bagaikan ekor Iembu yang digunakan untuk memukul orang. Kedua, perempuan yang berpakaian tetapi bertelanjang, berlenggang­ lenggok waktu berjalan, menghayun-hayunkan bahu. Kepala mereka (sanggul di atas kepala mereka) bagaikan bonggol (goh) unta yang senget. Kedua-dua golongan ini tidak akan masuk syurga dan tidak akan dapat mencium bau wanginya. Sesungguhnya bau wangi syurga itu sudah tercium dari perjalanan yang sangat jauh daripadanya". H.R. Muslim

mengapa?

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

mungkin post ini sedikit kasar.

kenapa kau buat-buat buta bila kau ada mata?
ada telinga, pendengaran baik kau buat-buat tuli?
dan bila ada mulut, untuk bercakap, tak pernah kau cakap elok-elok?


dua perkataan buat kau;

BIKIN PANAS!!!

raya lagi.

from left : christina, haly, ira, bebby, myself, jenny. and penny with white baju kurung.

@ open house ira, haly and bebby.

changes.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

I don't like this one.

I keep telling myself to not to try to be someone and just start being yourself. Right? But I don't even like myself. So I did some changing.

And maybe, just maybe on certain things, I change things way too much and it's just all happened too fast that the change doesn't stay permanently. It's just a cover. and inside, it's all lies.

Just for being home for 2 months and I've become such a horrible person again. I don't like this, I don't like me. I feel I'm being too hypocritical.

Clearly I still need guidance. A LOT OF THEM. I can't fly with my own wings, I still need to learn how to crawl before I run.

Strength & hope, I need you guys.

Syawal 1431

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.


Syawal 1431

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir & Batin

mickey

this is mickey. once own by kak ifa, who graduated. roommates with madhy. so now he's kind of madhy's. but mickey just walk around. currently crashing our place cos some of us give him food. and he just love that.

during summer he's super thin. should get his pic during summer. he's not cute then.

but during winter. SHO CUTE. chubbs. ;)

and this is him, fattening up.

randomise.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

isn't it sad that all we ever talk about is the past? and even though we had a good laugh talking about the past, it's still the past. we can't move towards the future if we keep talking about the past. i once dislike a friend of mine who couldn't let go of the past, the life of primary school when we were in secondary school. i mean, there were so much changes from primary school to secondary and i remember screaming in my head, "for the love of God, MOVE ON". yes, i was mean. i don't know why though. i guess kids don't have reason to be mean. they're just mean.
anyway, yeah. i can't talk about the present with you, let alone the future. actually i can, but you wouldn't give a damn and that sucks. i'm not saying we shouldn't be friends at all. we're friends. and only that. nothing more and hopefully nothing less.

and surprisingly, it hurts me. why surprisingly? i've mentally prepared for this and i still feel like this. i wonder what will happen if i don't give myself a heads up. i'd probably die inside. a little. and of course not literally.

there's more to life than this.

this is indeed, a sad reality.

on the other note, raya is in few days. and my friends here probably have classes and all. who am i gonna celebrate with? :( nah, i'm kidding. i don't really mind. i've lost the meaning of raya many years ago. so, the heck with it. and i hate the fact people only ask for forgiveness during raya. and celebrated raya too much. but raya is the only time family and relatives gather around and see each other. hm. well. i've once said raya is just another holiday. but here we don't even get holidays. so. the heck with that.

here we go again.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

31 aug
good day. mama's birthday. buka puasa with family. nabil & kerel stopped by. goood day.

1 sept

started bad. geram with my agent. bagi info sekerat, sekerat. tension. terus emotional tak sudah. mencarut-carut di twitter. ugh. not literally mencarut lah. but, cakap karut.

packing dalam keadaan terpaksa. dah half pack, just nak finalised everything. hm.

pergi betulkan specs with mama at giant. tu pun emotional jugak secara tiba-tiba. i don't know why. hormones menggila hari tersebut. sikit benda pun terus nangis.

they came. dana, teri, casey, haris, man kit, chai theng. was so thoughtful of them. they made me feel better. they gave me stuffs. paramore tshirt, another turqoise top, 1 framed picture of dana, teri and i, another pictures of all of us plus sasa. and the rip curl bag. haha. when they're about to leave. when i hugged dana. i just couldn't tahan my tears. i'm just, haih. i'm just gonna miss my bestfriend & them.

continue to pack. then off we go to klia. met kak wani before she left to japan. she looked happy. duh, of course. haha. then met aisha and niza. waited for our flight. felt like we've been waiting for hours! checked in, had my last beef -- double cheese burger. kenyang gile. ahha. saw abu and his fiancee at mcd. heh.

2 sept
naik flight. cari-cari muka familiar. saw adrian and priscilla. tak nampak pun shane! hmm.

oh oh oh. hahaha. must tell this one. saw these bunch of dudes, FAM dudes lah kot. wore black tshirt, with nike logo and FAM logo. must be a footballer lah kan. wondering where they go. surprise, surprise, they also going to dubai. haha. nothing interesting lah. it's just that SOMEONE was eyeing them dudes. hahahaha. :P

at dubai. jalan-jalan. deeenggg, my bag so heavy. too many hand carry stuff. heh. got my 10 dirham. haha. saje je mengada nak jugak 10 dirham. :P jalan-jalan again. sad lah our flight mesti the gate is at the end of the airport. jauh gila kena jalan. then saw shane, savinder, some other familiar faces yang gua tak ingat nama. hehe.

sampai moscow like, 3pm. at the immigration, the dude keep looking at the pic of passport and visa and then look at me. yes yes i look diff now. lama gila dia observe. -.-"

then wait for luggage lama jugak. si hijau (the bag) lambat sampai. and niza tak dapat the bag. turned out her bag labelled as fragile.

yeah, then waited for the bus to kursk. tapau-ed some sandwhiches. nak subway tapi jauh la subway. so we tapau-ed cikai sandwhiches lah tapi knowing it's at the airport, mahal gilak. redha je lah. better than nothing.

bus sampai. my stuff were the last to put in the bus. bus tetiba penuh. my bag kena sumbat-sumbat in. kesian si hijau. and my kotak. :[ oh well. haha.

sakit tengkuk and belakang okay! bumpy ride. dah la i tidur dont know how but i moved a lot. haha. almost fell. :/

3 sept
it has been a good day. arrived at kursk around 3 am, angkat barang macam menggila cos heavy. luckily they helped, thanks. transport suddenly buck up extra 200 rubles in the last minute but hmm tak kisah lah. still okay ada transport.

naik atas, tengok bilik, bukak drawer, HOMAGAD. lipas madness! suicidal banyak-banyak kat dalam drawerku. aaa~ habis barang gua! tapi nak buat macamana. dah season mereka. ok next year i'll know what to do. hehehe.

fon and minah excited kami balik. hehe. yea lah, they were lonely. they even buka puasa with ibra and wan. kesian kakak-kakakku. :P

hm, went to uni and settle things. to my surprise, my biology result was settled. i got what the malaysian government wanted. alhamdulillah. gua serious terkejut, i guess the last sitting made a difference. :)

knowing them russian, to register or to get contracts or to deal any admin stuff, you have to wait. for hours. so we did. sakit kaki tunggu madam natalia.

myself and minah. taken by aisha's BB. ;)

after dah settle semua, we went back to our hostel. minah wanted to cook nasi lemak -- and she did!

*for illustration purposes only. real food may vary.

it was really good! thanks to minah and fon. :)

alhamdulillah :)