Allahu akbar, walillahilhamd.
How I missed the sound of takbir in the eve of Syawal, and the morning after. Eidul fitri, the day of celebration for us, after a month of struggling in the university of Ramadhan, we get to celebrate ourselves on this 1st day of Syawal. however, a question always stuck in my head every time Ramadhan ends, "Do I deserve to celebrate this day?" I have always felt that I didn't make the most of Ramadhan. and it makes me wonder will I get the chance to meet the next Ramadhan? :( what's worse? I didn't managed to achieved my only goal for Ramadhan, that is to finish all 30 juz of Quran (with the meanings of course!) I have failed. *cries* I will try again next time insyaAllah!
this year I celebrated eid in SP; and alhamdulillah, I get to track back my maternal relatives who I've never seemed to know. (or knew but forgotten since we didn't come back here often before this) I told ma to draw all the relatives in a family tree form ; since her cousin had 10 kids and all of them have kids and grandkids. =.="
had 2 of the sisters visited over, and my rabb, they're just so sweet. kak keenah and kak eda. what they've been always telling me that, being a HO is tough, and even tougher if you are without Him. if He is the only intention of yours to become a doctor, insyaAllah you will survived and will never give up.
not just this, but anything my dear friends, anything. if you do for the sake of Allah SWT, you will feel relief, you will not feel negative and so and so. example : love your family for the sake of Allah, no matter how disappointed we felt with them, we will still try to mend the relation and also try to keep in a good condition.
sure, we as human, it's part of our fitrah to feel sad, angry, and whatever emotions we can feel. that's why it's important to tajdid our intentions; to renew it every single time, so that we are aware and always in remembrance of Him.
so, let's tajdid our intentions!