racist

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

53 tahun merdeka, betul-betul ke kita merdeka? aku rasa tak. langsung tak. aku tengok orang russia sambut victory day every year, (the day their war ended) lagi semangat dan buat aku rasa, malaysia merdeka = hampeh.

stop saying we're merdeka. cos we're not. even after 53 years we couldn't achieve a good merdeka like it was the first time. russia's victory day dah 65 tahun, kalau tak silap. and their spirit, lagi hebat. itu aku kagum.

our 53rd merdeka. kita masih racist, masih buat dakwaan tak berasas, masih amal rasuah, masih merempit dan masih tak tahu apa-apa pasal negara, especially belia-belia. aku pun clueless pasal negara ni. still dalam process ambil tahu sebab apparently, they don't teach us what we really suppose to learn. sejarah text book = lies. okay maybe not lies but not all truth. ada konteks yang kita tak tau. kita pun blur-blur. i dont like sejarah text book tapi kalau sejarah yang betul-betul sejarah macam peristiwa 13 may, aku suka ambil tahu.

i dont know if im racist if i feel like this :
melayu ni apa hal membabi buta buat statement tak pakai otak? melayu ni banyak masalah. dah lah asal usul pun tak tau. adat-adat melayu ni angkat dari mana? melayu does not equal to islam.
etc etc etc

sebenarnya aku tak suka benda-benda politik macam ni. like abang said, "kau cuba buang and tak nak peduli pun, kau akan terbaca something dan kau akan rasa geram." and yes, i feel geram.

the whole siti inshah and namawee thing.

sudahlah. focus on the real stuff? jangan perbesarkan benda yang kecik.

ps : aku tak setuju bendera dijadikan costume. disrespectful.

farewell august

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

had buka puasa with family & close relatives today. it was mama's birthday + my farewell, and funny thing was, i didn't invite any of my friends to come over cos well, i thought it was a family thing.

ayah : berapa orang kawan adik datang nanti?
me : hm? nabil just datang nak hantar cookies.
ayah : ha? habis tu tak buka puasa sekali?
me : tak lah. he's coming after terawih.
ayah : ni kan your farewell, if your friends takde macamana?

=.=" right there. haha. tapi takpe. it's just =.="

and YEAH i got them cookies from nabil & kerel. thank youuu. but this year no mr gingy. :( no im kidding, im still happy. :)

kakak dropped by to send raya festive cookies as well. and little azizah is getting bigger! she's chubbierrr, i love her cheeeks.

kakak : eleh macam dia masa kecik tak tembam.
me : yeah but i cant play with my own cheeks. :P
kakak : tengok dia, macam you. hidung tak mancung, pipi tembam, dahi jendul, bulu mata panjang.
me : tapi dia sepet, hahaha.
kakak : hahaha.
me : tu lah, it's your genes anyway. recessive on you but dominant on her.

and today i talked on the phone lama. with you know who (; i miss this! don't you? last time we always see each other and yet we still balik and talk on the phone for hours. haha. house phone boleh lah gayut. handphone? i hope your credit didn't die. sorry. AND I'M SO GONNA MISS YOU. *tahan diri untuk curse* :(

listening to oh chentaku album irfan got for me. dude, i forgot to pay you. :/ next year? lol. im kidding. i'll pass dana the money. this album cos i got them lyrics. finally know what myo sings in the songs. selalu tak faham apa dia cakap. haha.

sampai kat lagu "counting days and swings".

almost into tears.

aku akan rindu malaysia. not really the country tapi family and friends. tapi macam biasa, buat cool, happy, and like haris said before, just smile. and i will.

i have the rights to be emotional and i will post emotional stuff. so stay tuned for some emotional stuffs! :P

i had a great day. praise the Almighty.

paramore

i mean i just had to post about them. they're all over facebook and twitter. about the whole live in KL thing. gila. yang bukan fan - the one only know one song, either the only exception or decode pun pegi. bertambah jelesssssssssssssss. haha. but to those are die hard fans, macam sqeen, deserves it lah. haha. :)

nah, i just wanna say that paramore has been good to me. their songs, their melody, their energy. it's all gooooooood. i always quote from paramore's lyrics. cos they have one of the best lyrics. we can count good song lyrics nowadays. usually its all about sex, drugs, money and sex. -.- which i hate. harap je melody catchy. lyrics merepek. geram!

and paramore band members are young. i mean, they start at a very young age. heck the drummer, zack is a year older than me. and I'M YOUNG! :P ahhhhhh.

apa apa lah. aku suka paramore. takde band ada 3 album gempak berturut-turut. macam band-band lain i used to like - my chemical romance, panic at the disco, all one hit wonders kind of album. lepas album best, there comes the merepek phase of their talent ke apa.

but hey i know why the reason i won't be able to go to see them live. and when i know and remember always why, aku lega. :)

menghitung hari.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan yang ke-53.

ada reason kenapa diucap selamat. supaya tiada yang tercedera main bunga api, mercun dan sebagainya. tiada yang drink and drive. but hey, aku suka merdeka during ramadhan. AMAN. tersangat aman, takde konsert merepek dan less people getting into troubles and stuffs. which leads me to think, maybe the main corrupted minds are malays. ha ha. aku suka rasa racist terhadap race sendiri kadang-kadang dengan statement macam ni.

don't get me started what i really think of them malays. aku simpan thoughts tu untuk waktu lain. :P

hari ni hari jadi mama. dan aku, serba salah. sebab aku tak suka hari jadi, tak sambut dan sebagainya. aku just wish dia. the way she thanked me macam aku bagi sejuta ringgit kat dia. :')

okay, counting days to departure. dipaksa packing hari ni by mama. aku bukannya tak tau packing tapi aku tak nak. so. yeah.

part of me tak sabar nak pergi, the other part wants to stay with family and friends. :(

mama, i love you.

memories

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

the best thing about strong friendship & love.
when you have a bad day, just go and see them. hang out. talk about things. and there's no need to tell them your bad day, somehow they just make you feel better.


why do i keep taking a stroll down to the memory lane? and why to THOSE memories? go away memories. you might seemed all sweet but the truth is, you're bitter and ugly. someone had got you all covered with nice things to make it seems all pretty and nice.


biarkan aku merepek. biar aku je faham apa aku tulis.