Lailatul Qadr

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

alhamdulillah. hari ni dah masuk hari ke 21 Ramadhan. nampak gayanya orang ramai sibuk membeli-belah untuk raya nanti. sayangnya, Ramadhan yang ada di depan mata, Syawal yang nun jauh di sana juga yang dinampak. ni dah macam gajah depan mata tak nampak, kuman di sebelah rumah nampak pulak.

"Kalau orang datang rumah kita, mestilah kita jemput masuk yang di depan pintu dulu, baru yang di belakang tu kita jemput masuk." lebih kurang lah, ayat dari solusi.

sangat bersyukur Ramadhan kali ni berbeza dengan tahun lepas. perbezaan yang positif. rasa bertuah dapat nampak apa yang orang ramai tak nampak - keberkatan Ramadhan tu.

wa ma adro kama lailatul qadr? apakah itu lailatul qadar?

lailatul qadri khairummin alfi shahr. lailatul qadar itu lebih baik dari 1000 bulan.

"Orang bukan nak kejar lailatul qadar, orang sibuk nak kejar lailatul Kamdar." Akmal, coretan jalanan.

ada 9 hari lagi untuk kita mengejar segala macam kebaikan untuk bekalan 11 bulan akan datang. sebab apa? pada bulan ini, dan especially 10 yang terakhir, akan digandakan semua pahala.

cuba bayangkan Kamdar buat crazy sale. confirm semua generasi -- dari moyang sampai ke cicit akan serbu Kamdar. Ramadhan ni lagi hebat. kita semua tak nak serbu dan rebut peluang tu ke? kalau pergi Kamdar, barang dia limited. balasan Allah, unlimited. takkan habis, kerana Dia maha pemurah, maha besar, maha agung!

untuk effect yang terbaik, kejarlah keranaNya dan bukanlah untuk fadhilatnya.

jom kita kejar sampai dapat. ;)

on a personal note;

I'm truly grateful I went to RSSR. one of the most valuable moments indeed. I've no regret, but one--for leaving the program for a while to do something that is insignificant.

insyaAllah, next week I'll be at pre-departure russia-ireland-uk at pwtc, helping out my umno people. plus, I wanna check out whether any of my friends will be there. I'm not going back to that club, I don't like what I've become when I'm in the club. lagha semacam. with these people in the club, they just give me a major headache. sometimes it feels like i'm mothering naughty kids. yeah -_-"

but then again, Allah will never burden me with what I can't handle.

so, have faith.

"If you see an injustice ACT on it, and if you can't, then SPEAK on it, and if you can't then FEEL it with your heart, because that's the WEAKEST form of faith, but at least that's a start."

edit : apakah tips untuk bangun qiam?

lain orang, lain ragam lah kan? personally I'm the type who is so difficult to wake up, because I love to sleep. -_-" but, try these tips, see whether it helps.

1. tidur awal. kalau dah cukup tidur, senang nak bangun.
2. set alarm yang kuat, pastu letak jauh sikit, so that kalau nak matikan alarm tu you have to wake up. haaa!
3. drink plenty of water. besides helping your dehydration problems, you'd be waking up to go to the toilet. ta-da~ :p
4. jangan tidur dalam keadaan terlalu selesa. confirm susah nak bangun.
5. suruh mak/ayah kejutkan. in my case, ayah. sebab dia kejutkan FUHH terus bangun!
6. having a newborn around you helps. my niece, a 4months old selalu nangis nak susu time2 4am. so. terbangun la jugak. hahah.

actually kan, paling penting lah, sebelum tidur, niat nak bangun qiam. at least dah niat kalau pun tak terbangun. that's 1 point there, folks. pastu, doa sikit (bebanyak pun boleh) minta Allah permudahkan untuk bangun nanti. :)

speaking of sleep...

Allah memegang jiwa (orang) ketika matinya dan (memegang) jiwa (orang) yang belum mati di waktu tidurnya; maka Dia tahanlah jiwa (orang) yang telah Dia tetapkan kematiannya dan Dia melepaskan jiwa yang lain sampai waktu yang ditetapkan^[1]. Sesungguhnya pada yang demikian itu terdapat tanda- tanda kekuasaan Allah bagi kaum yang berfikir.

(Surah az-Zumar 39 :42)

that's why orang kata bila kita tidur, kita mati seketika. kerana Allah menahan jiwa kita. bila kita bangun, kenapa kita baca "alhamdulillahil ladzi ahyana ba'da ma amatana wailaihinnushur" yang bermaksud : Segala puji hanya milik Allah yang telah menghidupkan kami setelah sebelumnya mematikan kami, dan hanya kepada-Nya-lah kita kembali. Sebab apa? sebab Allah dah bagi kita peluang untuk hidup -- bukan bagi peluang nak repeat our mistakes, Dia beri peluang untuk kita repent.

i was told it is best that, before tidur tu kita muhasabah diri.

yakinkah kita boleh bangun esok?

adakah esok masih ada untuk kita?

wallahu'alambithawab.

Older than my age.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

I get this all the time.

Everyone does not think that I'm 20. By right, I do not even turn 20 yet.

Kak Husna has told me that I'm matured for my age and I do look matured, thus I do not look 20.

Okay, I'm taking that as a compliment.

"Where do you stay?"

"Block 2D"

"Oh, with your husband?"

"No, I live with my parents."

*wide eyes, shocked.*

Yeah, what a 25-year-old do living with her parents? No, lady, I'm not married, and I'm 20. Ehem.

"Who do you have usrah with?"
"Kak Husna."

"Kak Husna???"

"Yeah, she was born in '88."

"And you?"

"Erm, 91?"
"No wonder! You look matured!"

Kak Farihin, wondering why did I call kak Husna, 'kak'. Hahah

and the day when I wore my contact lenses; a lady said :

"Do you go to school here?"

"Err, nope. :)"

Oh, do I look younger without my spectacles? Hahahah

Anyway, I believe that my mature look is a factor why I don't get duit raya anymore.

Not that I'm complaining, rezeki itu ditanganNya.

Mama said it's the height factor that makes people think I am older than my age.

A man who is selling whatever he is selling, clearly older than me :
"Kak, nak beli ____ tak? Kak mari sini kak..."

Honestly, I rather him calls me kakak than calls me 'adik'. Geli kot kalau lelaki tak berkenaan panggil adik.

"Adik tinggi!"

"Kakak...rendah?"

"Heyyy~"

Lol, kak Shitekk. She's so cute, and she does look younger than me.

"Berapa lama lagi kat sana?"

"Lama lagi aih, 5 tahun.."

"Uih lamanya!"

"Sya year berapa?"
"1st year..."
"Laa, ingatkan Sya dah 4th year!"

Yeah, yeah.

*looks at Kak Farhana who told that she has graduated recently; pointed to me*

"Ni pun dah grad jugak eh?"

Hoho, how I wish.

Medical term pun aku tak tahu.

Family dah ingat aku doctor tak boleh pakai.

Alasan aku : baru nak masuk 2nd year!

HAHA

Oh well.

Kids

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

abang : aku tak tahu macamana kau boleh layan Melor

me : why?

abang : kitorang had this idea yang kau tak suka...

me : ...kids? yeah, i don't like kids.

abang : haa. tapi aku tengok kau dengan Melor ok je. macamana kau boleh tolerate budak kecik tu aku pun tak tahu.

me : dia kan kecik lagi

abang : hmm, ok. tapi tak explain macamana kau boleh layan dia.

me : i don't know, dia kecik lagi so tak banyak ragam kot? macam Hadif tu mana ada adik (me) layan sangat.

abang : yeah

haha. dah lah previous post was about marriage, and now, kids?

aiih, takde la drama mana pun. he was right though, i don't like kids. i think i've made it very clear although i have never say it out loud.

i'm the last child, so you get the idea. when i was little, when i saw mama or ayah holding someone else's baby i get jealous. i don't play with little kids, babies, i tend to avoid them. i didn't even care about them because usually there's other people who does. so. yeah.

Melor is my 2nd niece but the first one, Azizah is always away so I don't 'talk' to her that often too. plus, i think she's scared of me. ahaha. Melor is always at home so you can't ignore her, right? LOL.

nah, i think i just need time to really get to know someone, even if it's a baby. so it takes time for me to really go and tolerate with one.

that's how bad i am with kids.

hey but i was and still am excited for baby boy from my sister!

heheheehe

Marriage

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

On an quite irrelevant post today, I think I'm seeing things in positive way. Which is really good.

Okay, first of all, I'm not getting married. The jokes of me being the next in line to get married is never funny. -_-" I'm gonna wait for my cousin sisters to get married first. :p

Lately asyik jumpa pasal kahwin-kahwin ni. Maklumlah, sebelum Ramadhan banyak juga kenduri kahwin a.k.a walimah. Mama talked about her friend's daughter who just graduated and will be starting her HO soon and getting married on October. She's a 4.0 student. *terbatuk kejap* Pandai oh!

Plus, that short story of aiman azlan about marriage also. Hmm, marriage!

No lah, it's just that, I somehow think that marriage is a beautiful thing. Serious! Looking at married couple, and how sweet they can be. No matter how sweet you are with your bf/gf, I don't see it, I still think married couple are the sweetest, ftw. Haha. I'm just saying. Looking at kakak-kakak that are married, so sweet lah even though they did not show any of it.

Excuse me, it's just that I believe love after marriage and not before it. So, yeah. :P

I also believe that marriage is not a matter where you can force someone into. If the person think that she's not ready, then don't push it. Or else you'd have the celebrity marriage style. Married for 3 months, divorced. La la la. Maybe everyone is just pressured to be married while you yourself is not ready. Bear in mind that divorce is hated by Allah.

Kesederhanaan tu penting untuk walimah. Kalau aku yang kahwin, jangan harap nak buat grand-grand. Haha. Bazir duit je. What's the point if you have 'wedding of the year' thing if your marriage don't last? Call me kuno or whatever, I still think it's best to have a simple wedding. Oh and please, avoid upacara tepur tawar, baling2 beras kuning, upacara batal air sembahyang or whatever do people usually do in weddings. Islam has never taught us that.

The other day saw kak Enal's post about "happiness". She said something like this :

"Kunci bahagia itu ada pada Dia maka carilah Dia terlebih dahulu sebelum mncari si 'dia'."

Yeah.

So true. If one day I'd be married, I want to be with the person who has the same ambition as me; that is to get to ustaziatul alam level.

*berangan*

For now, let's bercinta with Him. Hehe. Ramadhan is a golden opportunity to grab His love! While stock last**

Lol, kidding. His love and mercy for us is unlimited kot.

#sorrytaklawak

Fidyah, oh Fidyah

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

Fidyah -- macam nama orang je kan?

Tahukah anda apa itu fidyah? Rasa macam pernah belajar untuk SPM dulu. Haha. Memang pun!

Aku kena bayar fidyah tahun ni. Tahniah kepada aku. -_-

Kenapa kena bayar? Ehem, macam tak tahu. Disebabkan tak habis ganti lagi puasa Ramadhan lepas, dan sekarang ni dah Ramadhan baru, aku diwajibkan bayar fidyah.

Mama : Tu lah, kenapa tak ganti awal-awal macam mama. Kan dah kena bayar...

Me : Bukan tak nak ganti, awal-awal dulu puasa dah, tapi jadi puasa sunat sebab dah lepas subuh baru nak niat. Kan kalau qada' puasa kena niat sebelum subuh / malam sebelum tu macam puasa Ramadhan.

Mama : Laa. (aku tahu mak aku dah speechless dah dengar cerita aku)

Hahaha

Seriously. Banyak puasa aku dulu jadi puasa sunat. Tersangatlah rugi, kan? Aku selalu terlupa nak puasa the next day, till dah lepas subuh, or pagi-pagi nak pergi kelas. Ye lah kan, sesetengah orang cakap niat tak semestinya melafazkan "Sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari, blablablabla", cukup sekadar "hmm, esok aku nak ganti puasa hari tu la. lillahita'ala". Dah aku jenis pelupa, memang tu pun aku tak teringat nak buat. Dah pagi nak pergi kelas baru lah sedar, terkedek-kedek nak niat.

Kawan : Tak payahlah nak kejarkan sangat puasa sunat, habiskan yang wajib dulu (which is qada' puasa)

T.T

Dah lah dengan dugaan winter yang malamnya panjang, dengan summer yang siangnya panjang.

Nasi sudah menjadi bubur.

Lepas ni aku mesti ganti sebelum Muharram tiba!

Info sikit :

Fidyah dibayar ikut harga secupak beras. Ada beberapa jenis beras, ada yang mahal sikit (sikit je, beza beberapa sen je) Ikut korang lah nak pilih nak beras jenis apa. Lepas tu darab dengan jumlah hari anda tertinggal. Kalau 4 hari, bayaran darab 4 lah. Lepas bayar fidyah diwajibkan qada' puasa tu jugak. Kalau 4 hari, ganti puasa 4 hari. So. Kalau kumpul bebanyak, kena qada' jugak, kena bayar jugak. Aku serik dah ni.

Tapi ni kes macam aku lah, tak habis ganti puasa Ramadhan lepas, Ramadhan yang ni dah tiba. Kalau kes lain, kena refer dekat Jabatan Agama untuk keterangan lebih jelas. Call je diorang. Tanya je. Kalau dorang tak boleh jawab dia akan suruh orang lain jawab, so kena tunggu la kat telefon tu. Jangan give up, haha.

Adoi.

Mudah-mudahan Allah mengampuni kesilapan kita.

Jangan jadi macam aku. Sekian.