weekends.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

abang : adik, kau jangan kahwin.
me : hahahha kenapa?
abang : penat !

dont get it wrong, bukan penat apa. penat nak buat preparation. the walimatul urus. the hantaran, the bunga telur, etc.

PENAT ! and i'm not the one who's getting married. bayangkan laaa. like i said, we've been through this last year, during kakak's wedding. but i think last year lagi penat. tido like 3am to siapkan things. etc etc. eventhough i have to admit, i'm the lazy member. i only do maybe 30% of the work and i already complaining penat. kudos to mama. idk how she does it. shes a superwoman~ ayah can la also be superman. hehehe.

few months ago, i have this 'dream', that time wedding abang i wanna play the Barakallahulakuma song by Maher Zain. cos it's the doa for newlyweds. tapi tinggal mimpi je la. i don't have the song to pass the dj. :( ok la, here, i tujukan the song to them. haha.

and ramai suka buat joke pasal next year i pulak getting married, cos last year was kakak's and this year is abang's. =.=" sudah2 lah. i'm giving my parents at least 7 years of rest before my wedding begins. ;) haahaa.

it's nice to have abang around. and kakak. i like it when we're all here together. despite every bittersweet we've been through. *sentimental sekejap* lepas ni aku confirm solo. kakak has her own family now and abang gonna start his. wow, if i already feel like this, my parents lagi lah. with myself gonna be home for only 1-2 months in a year. i'm gonna missed out every exciting thing. :(

my niece is interesting. she's nocturnal. sleeps during the day, despite of all kinds of noises. wake up during the night, trouble her parents. huahuahua. little azizah. miow. :D

kakak doesn't look like a mom. and we still got mistaken as each other. old news. -.- most of ppl think i'm the elder. cos i'm taller. ha ha. heyy i'm taller than kak wani. kesianlah, she's been wearing 4 inch heels during the wedding reception. well you know what they say : beauty is pain. speaking of shoes, i wore my black sneakers to both events on saturday and sunday. on saturday still ok i think cos i was wearing black pants. on sunday i wore the sneakers with the turqoise baju kurung. what to do lah, i don't have any other shoes. i can't wear anyone elses' shoes cos my feet is 'delicate'. i thought i could wear teri's but, oooh dear. i couldn't. so the heck with it, not like people gonna notice. BUT, a'd noticed. that's bcos she always look at the shoes i think? she was like "next time, jangan pakai kasut ni!" hahahahhaah. i already warned my parents i'm gonna wear it. abang and ayah were like, just wear it. im like yeah !! the dudes in the family supportive gila. ahhahaha. on sunday abang mentioned about my shoes. kak wani was like "semalam pun dia pakai kan?" haha. black sneakers ftw! (Y)

it's good to be home. i thanked the Almighty for that. but one thing i dont like being home, my attitude changes. to my old self. the negative me. i don't know why but the environment makes me become so. i must learn how to control these behaviours. ;S

b-b-break

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

i feel like blogging. whoa oh. im THAT bored. :nods: but hey, that's holiday. if only i were in kj. i wouldn't even be in the house so often, hahaha. staying here is nice but it's so hard to go out without transport. ;[ and like, ok, i need a car to go anywhere cos i dont know how to take public transport in here. ok more like i dont want to. i hate ktm. thats the closest thing right now. i hate ktm, did i mention tht? mhm.

o well.

abang's back. i cant believe he still steals my blanket when i was asleep. i dono why but he always do that. i woke up in early morning (like really early) realising my blanket's gone. oh look, it's on the floor with a dude lying on it. oh, brother. -.- i had to get something else to cover myself. and i was like ahhh malasnyaa, i'm alrdy lying down. ok, think, you wanna be lazy and get cold for the rest of the sleep or be slightly rajin and go get the towel? (i seriously said that to myself) so i got up and grab the towel and cover myself, sambung balik tido. yeay me. lol.

when everyone else was awake, talking and talking, i just feel like sleeping. i think my mom or was it my aunt, fold the blanket my bro used and cover me up. lols.

oh yeah im pretty sure its my aunt. cos she would say something like "oo selimut, selimut. sexy, sexy." -.- i was wearing shorts je kot. not like i'm well... ahhaha, ok. :$

btw, abang bought this armani perfume, limited edition. it looked nice. didn't smell it. the reason he bought it? the limited edition perfume comes with a limited edition playing cards. i knew it. hahaha.

mama wanted said, "we shud do bbq end of this month.." and im sure, by we, she meant me. -.- not that i dont wanna do, i just think there's not much time. with the wedding this weekend, and the post-wedding tire. hoho. we've been through this last yr ppl. it's not that easy.. i wonder why women, like mama, aunts and grandma, gets soooooooooooooo excited to plan the wedding. so many things to do. so tiring. so. so. so. tiring! (even if its not me who do most of the stuff, can u imagine?) and the dudes just laid back. ok not really goyang kaki but pretty laid back lah.

oh women. sometimes i dont get you. my idea of shopping, go to the shop, get the things, go back home. yeap. not going around every store and well, look at everything and then decide which to buy. i don't really like shopping much. i mean, i like when i get to buy something i like. but not the idea of going to every stores and check out everything. thats why i rarely shop. hoho. i dono. i like to think that sometimes i do think like a dude. hahahahahaha.

oh, watching the friday prayer thing on tv1. i dono why the camera ppl are so close to the ppl whos praying and with the camera flash and all. distracting la. plus, this particular saying like haunts me (in a good way) everytime i thought of friday prayer. something like this :

"takkan ada jemaah subuh yang lebih ramai dari jemaah jumaat".

SO TRUE. :S

what is the diff anyway? subuh prayer is no less wajib as jumaat prayer. but of cos, to pray as jemaah is optional but wouldn't it be great if we could build jemaah subuh as many as jemaah jumaat?

hm.

hunting.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

yes, i'm back for the summer break. back in malaysia that is. been meaning to blog but didn't have the mood. so here's the mood.

journey from kursk to malaysia is like almost 24 hours. tiring, my back hurts like an old lady. but alhamdulillah, i've made it to malaysia. we had some drama going on during the journey but hey, what's life without drama? haha.

i don't know if my friends know i have moved from KJ. i think some of them knows anyway. yeap, right now it's either i'm in Puchong, or in Sentul. so, yeah. you guys still can reach my at my old number. so just call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me. :D

yesterday went jalan2 for a bit. and i saw MY PRECIOUS. i've told myself and some others that if i saw a green converse, i would so totally buy it! and i did. and i was like having a moment there. *everything was in the dark and a spotlight lighting to the green converse* and it's not just green, it's apple green. i really hope no one touches my precious. i mean, to everyone i know, PLS DONT BUY IT. dont touch my precious. :) one of these days i'm gonna go get it. pls wait my love, we'll be together soon. <33

oh yeah, there was also turquoise and purple. the purple is not that nice. but the turquoise is nice too. i'm thinking to get them both. haha. *tamak haloba*

i think i need to go and do some medical check up. the rashes are gone worse and now i feel like dizzy. maybe that's because i've been eating a lot of malaysian food and stuff. everything. i want everything. ahhaha. i wanna go hunt for foood. but no one is free enough to teman me go anywhere. everyone i'm close with have either school, college, uni, work maybe. ahhh :( sedihs.

i feel like hunting tmrw. food and my precious. maybe do a little visiting. i shall propose this idea to mama. nyiahaha.

oh and spain was the world cup champion. big deal. i like spain but seriously i couldn't care less. lalala. and for the people to believe a "prediction" by a squid? he is a squidddddd. or an octopus? i'm not sure. yang penting dia Cephalopoda, Mollusc. khurafat gile percaya benda alah ni. bongeks.

lol, teringat my roomie ask me when we were in kursk;
"sya, what's the meaning of bongok?"
"you just look at niza, then you will understand.."
hhahahah. joke joke. cos niza lah always say bongok. bongok. :p

oh wells. i need to list the things i need to buy and want to buy. nyiahhaa. must go huuntingggg.

ignorance.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

I feel like this song suits THE situation. I'm talking about the person who couldn't let go of the past, still living the memories, fantasizing, not snapping back to reality. You're annoying and I still think you're an idiot. Tq.

Ignorance is bliss indeed.

dunia, oh dunia.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

hari ni aku settlekan exam bio. pass ke tidak, esok baru dapat result. lepas exam kami berempat (with ira, sasa & niza) mengejarkan signature utk approval balik nanti. sambil2 tu makan lunch kat italianski. pergh, sodap bro! sushi roll dia menghampakan. tapi pasta sotong dia. YUM ! :D sana agak pricey that's why we saved the last day of exam to go there. and then balik to uni.

kat uni, we were supposed to get few signatures lah as approval balik kan. one of them is our dean of faculty. hari tu mintak kat dia, dia kata lepas buat exam semua baru dia nak sign. so hari ni paper last lah kan, utk our faculty, punyalah gempak, sebab time kitorang mencari dia untuk dptkan sign, dia takde. yang ada secretary dia.

*translated convo from russian*
us : can we get the dean's signature?
secretary : dean is on holiday.
us : oh, when will he be back?
secretary : september.

GEMPAK RITE? -.-

patut vice dean lah kan sign bagi pihak. pegi kat vice dean dia kata secretary pulak yang sign. secretary dia ni pulak cakap tak tau tak tau, tanya muhammad. (muhammad mcm PR for foreigners la)

at last we asked our russian teacher to settlekan. jadi. ok lah. esok pegi collect paper tu.

actually bila collect signature ni kan, terigt time dulu kat sekolah, during my prefect probation. kena ambik signature semua. tapi tu bongek, sbb senior ask the ridiculous things for us to do! tanya la soalan yang bernas ke. ni suruh kejar sini sana, membuli ! saya dengan rileknya tak participate, i don't like the concept of it. kalau kau tanya aku soalan like "berapa umur pn lee" aku ok lagi. kalau kau suruh aku nyanyi sekuat hati lagu pengawas, kirim salam bro. *rebelious* ;) anyhow i think i managed to get 1 signature. tu pun from seng guan, the assistant head prefect, gave me, for the sake of mercy. gaha, i didn't even ask for it. sebab probates lain semua macam competitive, nak completekan semua list, or siapa complete terbanyak. i was actually touched that seng guan gave me his signature, cos with other people he gave a hard time to collect the signature.

another one was during form 6 orientation. collect signature form 6 teachers and ajk of form 6 council. i only take signatures from those yang don't ask us to do ridiculous thing. well actually from the start me, dana and chai theng tak nak buat. they said those who get the least signatures will be punish. so we did it anyway. BUT, we were still among those who got the least signatures. HAHA. then we had to choose a partner, to DANCE with infront of everyone to britney's CIRCUS. HOMAIGAD. i did it. and luckily there was sai. i didn't know who else to pick, dah la tak kenal semua org, hahaha. it was. omg. cukup2 la cerita psl tu. xD

enough with going down memory lane. back to reality.

balik hostel, found out tandas tersumbat, AGAIN. shiet, people don't you read? it clearly states : DO NOT THROW RUBBISH (TISSUES,CIGARETTES,PAD) INTO THE TOILET BOWL. and it was in russian & english. how hard is it for you to understand? pacimu vi ne panimaite? ya ujhe napisala pa ruski! shto eta takoi? glupiye ruskie ludi !

report kat mama vera. then try to tido, tenangkan hati yang cepat sangat marah & geram tak tentu pasal. haih.

bangun, lepak jap with wingmates. teman dorang makan. still kenyang form italianski, tapi kesian fon already cook for us. huhu. watched alice in wonderland halfway then tiba2 teringat ada remember me. so layan remember me. mula2 ingat nak solat dulu tapi mcm ala tgk la movie dulu, maghrib lambat masuk anyways.

tgk movie then tertido. cerita dia oke la, rob looks better there, when he doesn't try so hard to be a vampire. then the girl, her eyes, i love. aha. sedar time ira dtg bilik. talked to her, hu ha hu ha kejap. :)

time tu dah maghrib pun. tgk la tu. LALAI. serious bengong aku time tu. eventho part of me says "go go go go solat !" the dominant part says "kejap la kejap la" ... :(

basuh baju, socks. then time nak mandi, sedang shampoo dgn best, air sejuk takde. AIR SEJUK TAKDE. whtha. tgh shampoo !!! satu building takde air sejuk, penat check dgn member2. pergh ! tu la. balasan. lengahkan lagi solat. baru kau tau. padan mukeeeeeee.

at the end bilas dgn air minum roommateku. thanks fon. huhu. then terus rasa macam dunia ni macam tahi, melalaikan tak sudah sampai tahap lupa kat Tuhan.

betapa rasa bersalahnya aku. takut kalau2... :(

moral of story, jangan lengahkan benda baik. lapang sebelum sempit, kawan2. we don't know what's infront of us. what will we do tmrw. we can only plan but God is the one who sets everything.

this applies to another thing, the one moral i picked up from movie "remember me". *SPOILER ALERT* ellie, the girl, always eat dessert first. when asked why, she said that what if something happen right that moment and she couldn't have the thing that she most desired for? and the ending, where, tyler, the dude, was in the world trade centre building, and it was september 11, 2001. he didn't knew what was coming.

dont get me wrong, i'm not asking you to ENJOY sampai mati sbb nanti bila mati tak dapat enjoy. i'm saying that, we don't know when we're gonna die. sure, we take care our heart, we exercise regularly, eat balanced diet but that doesn't gurantee anybody's life. seriously. we can die on the spot if God wants us to. so stop, don't procrastinate good or even great things. we wouldn't know when our time is up, people. don't waste your time to do insignificant things. proceed to greater things.

& as usual, this is a reminder for myself and others out there. muhasabah diri masing2. :]